A world cluttered
POSTED AT 02:52 PM

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"As much as we try to disagree,
it is inevitable that no matter how much effort we put in,
the amount of deceits and lies this world has will always overpower us"

Once I had a lesson on what it means to be hurt by the people you trusted most. After all the joyful moments shared, i realize happiness was merely a visage to cover up the hurts. The journey is but a gentle slope downwards. Happiness draws you there. Hurts welcomes you at the end.

Hurts exist, and because of it, love transcend.

I like to agree with the phrase, "Money/love makes the world go round" but its just seems absurd. If money makes the world go round, then poverty will make the world stop. If love makes the world go round, then hurts and sadness will make it stop.

Yet we never do realize do we, neither money nor love moves the world. Hurts and sadness does. When we fall in love, everything just stops. Time stops, worries goes pass, sadness is but a dream. But when there's hurts, we seem like we're left behind. It seems that the world is moving and yet, all we do is to flow with the hurts.

And it is because of it, people strive to make something better out of their hurts and lack of strength. It is also because of hurts, everyone comes together to get through life as a unit. It is also due to that, people rise against the odds and resolve towards making changes around them. Not willing to give up just yet. Not willing to throw in the towel.

Yet, this people are but a few.

United We Stand

I feel I'm leading you readers in a wrong direction with my words. I'm not trying to say, "Engulf yourself in hurts" nor am I supporting hurts and sadness. I'm just trying to express what the world is today.

We are humans. Emotions is part of our innate build up. We live, we die. Through that journey we learn of love, hurts, friendship, companionship, how to live and how to die.

Nevertheless, I believe, behind all the hurts and sorrows. There's something inside us that cries for help deep down the heart. But everywhere and everything we see, everyone, are all so strong. We try to look strong on the outside so much that we forgot, that inside we're crumbling.

I sometimes feel, when i go to Church, I hold back because everyone around me is so strong. I feel like I'll be look down if i admit my hurts and saying that I'm in need of help after I have put on a mask to show a confident face just before stepping into the sanctuary.

Like this song says:

Is there anyone that fails?
Is there anyone that falls?
Am I the only today feeling so small?

Cause' when I take a look around
Everyone seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Is there anyone who's been there?
Are there any hands to raise?
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free?
If I dare to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Are we happy plastic people?
With walls around our weakness
and smiles to hide our pain.

This is what I'm talking about, when i started this entry with the quote. Everyone is hiding behind the curtain. Everyone is trying to fool themselves with the lies and deceits they have been telling themselves. "I am strong! I can't afford to lose out! I must not look weak!"

Yet, as much as we want to believe it, we're just trading our life for a stage. Shakespear said:

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts

I guess it's high time we stop performing, the payment are nothing but sorrows each time we exit. The contract is nothing but deceits when we enter.

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